ko zanyi ba zan iya zubar da kimana da darajana don kawai ina son wani ya gyara halinsa.

Yana zaune ya dafe kanshi da hannu daya kamar yadda ya saba idan yana cikin damuwa a hankali ya juya yana dan sauke ajiyan zuciya.
Ya zubawa desktop din dake gaban shi ido ya rasa gane me yasa ya kasa cire tunanen wanan yarinyar a zuciyar shi haka ?
A hankali kifa kansa saman hannun shi tabbas yana da yakinin yanzu ba tausayin zainab da kuma son ya taimake kamar yadda yai alkawari da farko bane.
Yana jin burbushin wani yanayi daba zai iya fassara ko me ye ba a zuciyar shi don yarinyar ta zame mashi kamar wani bangare na rayuwan shi a yanzu don yana jinta kamar ba zai iya rayuwa mai farin ciki ba idan yai nisa da ita.
Sai dai yana matukar tausayawa kansa da yarinyar domin kuwa yasan idan zasu tabbata a haka rayuwan su a cikin garari zai tabbata don ba zai iya tabukawa kansu komai ba a zaman su.
Kamar an tsikare shi ya dago a yadda yake da sauri yana fadi a fili idan ta gujeni fa don sanin koni waye a yanzu ?
Ko kuma ta kasa boye hakan a zuciyar ta har ta fadawa wani wanan maganan da yake siri a tsakanin su don yarintan da yake a kanta tayi kankanta rike wanan sirin a zuciyar ta yanzu.
Wayan shi ya zaro daga gaban aljihun yana kokarin kiran layina sai a lokacin ya tuna ai banda layin kasan nan da zai kirani dashi a yanzu.
Wani wawan tsuki ya sake tare da fadin Oh shit wanan wani irin wauta nayi da sakaci ai hakan sai na kara saka zargin wani a kan hakan .
Mikewa yayi tsaye lokaci guda yana shirin fita daga office din tare da tatara kanyan shi dake yashe saman table din.
Daga haka ya fito da sauri drivern shi daya hangoshi ya karaso inda yake don ya karbi yar jakkan dake hannun boss din nasa.
Mota ya shiga baya an bude Allah Allah yakeyi ya isa gida yayi mata warning kan zancen don ya fahinci ta dan warware da safe kafin ya fita.
A falo muke zaune muna hira dasu mama da suka shigo suna ban labarin sun hadu da wata yar kasan data dinga zuba masu yare a cikin masifa suna mayar mata da zagi da hausa.
Muna cikin dariyan hakan sai ganin shi mukayi a daidai lokacin ya shigo duk da ba a daidai lokacin yake dawowa gidan ba.
Idon shi a kaina daya shigo falon yana mamakin yadda ya sameni yau ina dariya don bai taba samuna a haka ba tun zama a gidan nasa.
A cikin daurewa da danne zuciyana na samu kaina da masa sannu da zuwa ina danne zuciyana don har lokacin ina mai jin kyaman shi don ina kallon a cikin yanayin dana ganshi a ranan.
Amsawa yayi a cikin basarwa kamar yadda ya saba yi ako yaushe yana kokarin shihewa muka samu muryan shi yana fadin ke zainab zo ki sameni a ciki daga haka ya shige zuwa part din sa.
Ina mamakin jin haka a raina na tsinkayi muryan mama tana fadin kai wanan yar da shirme kike har yanzu miji ya dawo baki tashi ki taresa irin na yan zamanin nan har sai ya bukaci hakan a gareki ?
Dan turo baki nayi a gaba ina nuna bazan iya hakan ba halimatu ta saka min dariya na juyo ina fadin mama zan mari wanan yarinyar fa idan bata daina ba.
Jeki zan mata fada mama ta fada itama tana kunshe dariyan ta dan wautan yarintar data gani a fili a gareni tare da fadin shi kuma jafar abinda ya sayawa kansa ke nan yanzu ?
A part din nasa na sameshi a falon shi tsaye yana sintiri kamar wani abu na damunsa a lokacin na shigo na sameshi a hakan.
Banyi magana ba ya juyo yana kallona na dan lokaci kafin yace me kike fadawa su mama ?
Ban fahinci tambayan ka ba na tambaya a hankali naji yace kin fada masu ke nan ko ?
Me na fada na sake tambayan shi cikin karfin hali ido ya tsura min kamar yana son fahintar wani abu a gareni kafin ya juya yana fadin shike nan ya fara tafiya.
Ai basai na fada masu ba inshine tunanen ka kai da kanka idan baka daina ba zaka sheda masu kokai waye watarana.
Wani irin juyowa yayi lokaci guda yana kallona ni babu fa,idan fadin wanan yanzu a bakina do abin kunyane a gareni don haka inama fatan Allah ya rabaka da wanan kazamin hali naka a yanzu yaya.
Daga haka na juya na fara tafiya na barshi a wutin cike da mamakina nima tafiya nake ina mai yaba karfin halina na yaba bajinta na haka a gareshi lokaci guda.
Ina fadi a fili ashe zan iya kamar yadda ya jamal ya gaya min saina cire tsoro a zuciyana na dasa mashi shakkana da tsoro a ransa.
Dakina na fada na mayar na rufe tare da fadawa saman gado ina runtse idona wasu hawayene suka silalo min lokaci guda.
A fili na furta yaya meyasa ka zabi wanan rayuwan a tsakanin rayuwan da zata zubar maka da darajan ka da kimarka a idona lokaci guda.
Me ake da dan giya a rayuwa gara in rufe ido in koyi tujara akan hakan tun yanzu don in samu makamin yakarshi akan wanan harkan.
Shima mamaki ne ya kasheshi a wurin wai haka yarinyar nan take dama koko yanzu ne ta fara hakan don ganina da tayi a cikin wani yanayin da bai dace ba.
Zanyiwa tufkan hanci tun kan raini da wullakanci ya shiga tsakanin mu nan gaba da ita don ba zan lamunci karamar yarinya ta rainani ba.
Zuciyar shice ta bashi amsa lokaci guda da fadin kai ka ja da baka yarda ta ganka a wanan halin na buguwa ba.
Ido ya runtse lokaci guda yana maijin zafin kansa akan hakan ya bude kofa ya shiga dakin ya bi da kallo lokaci guda.
Sai lokacin taju da yaima korar kare a ranan ya fado mai a zuciya don gashi yanzu yana son shi a kusa dashi ba halin hakan don yadda yake jin kansa yau ba zai iya daure hakan ba.
Kayan jikin shi ya dan tage ya shiga bandaki ya watsa ruwa a jiki shi ya fito sallah ya gabatar kafin ya fito don yaci wani abu a cikinsa don rabonshi da yaci abinci tun daren jiya daya dan sha wani ferfesun da suke sha wanda ke kara masu karfi a jiki.
Falon ya fito tare da danna kararawan kitchen don kiran daya daga cikin masu dafa abinci a gidan julie ce ta fito da sauri don tasan kiran maigidan ne a lokacin don shi kadai ke danna kararawan kiran su bakinshi basu taba kiransu haka ba.
Tazo ta dan duka cikin girmamawa tare da fadin can i help you sir ba tare daya dago kanshi yace ta kawo mai abinci yaci ta juya da sauri tana fadin an gama.
A daidai lokacin ne kuma na fito daga part dina zuwa falon wanan karon na sauya kayan jikina zuwa wando da riga masu kame jiki don fara gwada shawaran anty fadila dana yanke a raina.
Tafe nake kamar bansan yana falon ba zaune na nufi wurin tv ina kokarin kunnawa tun shigowana falon ya sauke idon shi a kaina.
Da sauri ya kawar da kanshi kamar wanda yaga wani abin tsoro a lokacin yana dan shafan kanshi don dan kwana biyun nan da yayi bai sha komai ba ko shakawa.
Yana jin kansa a wani irin yanayi na daban da ke sakasu a cikin wani hali har zuwa lokacin da julie din ta kawo mai abincin kanshi na duke a kasa yana shafa a hankali don yanayin da yake jin kansa a lokacin.
Tana ajewa take sanar mashi ya dago kai da jajayen idon shi da suka rine masa yakai kallon shi ga abincin .
Kiran ta yayi don har ta juya zata wuce ciki yace ta dawo ta bude abinda ta dafa din daga inda nake ina jiyosu nace ta tafi ta barni in bude mai na fada cikin dakewan zuciya.


ZAINAB IDRIS MAKAWA




A hankali na fara takowa daga inda nake tsaye zuwa dining din a cikin tafiya mai kama dana hawainiya da nakan yi idan ina tafiya don sayin halina bai tsaya iya halina ba kwai har yanayin magana na da tafiyana a cikin sanyi nakeyin sa wanda sai mutum ya dauka sallone ya mayar dani hakan.
Ba iyanan abin ya tsaya min ba don har yanayin kukana idan ina yi a kusa da mutum sai zuciyar mutum ya shiga wani hali a lokacin don tausayi.
Gabana na faduwa na karaso inda yake zaune a gurin daning din a cikin tafiyana mai kama dana hawainiya da zaka dauka sallone ya mayar min da tafiya hakana.
Har na karaso inda yake zaune yana mamakin sauyina a cikin lokaci guda na yadda na sauya ma sanin da yayi min da farko na mika hannu a hankali na fara bude warmer din dake gabana har lokacin yana zaune ya rike haban shi da hannayen shi duka biyu ta hanyan yin tagumi dasu yana kallona.
Wani irin ferfesu na gani a ciki tare da wasu irin ganyayyaki da wani icce da ban san ko na meye ba na nufi dayan kulan zan bude naji ya dakatar dani yana fadin zuba min wanan din.
Da mamaki na juyo na dan kalleshi har lokacin yana zaune a yadda yake saidai wanan karon bani yake kallo ba.
Plate na jawo na soma zuba abinda ke cikin warmer din a hankali saida yagaji ya bude baki da kyat yana fadin ya isa hakana mana a cikin dakewa.
Mayar da marfin nayi na rufe naja kujera daga gefe daya na zauna ya dauki spoon ya fara kurban ruwan a hankali ta hanyar ja a cikin sallo.
Duk ina zaune gefen shi ina kallon shi ba tare dana motsa a inda nake zaune ba shi kuma ya mayar da hankali yana kurban abinsa hankali kwance.
Sai mamakin haka nakeyi a zuciyana a daidai lokacin ne wayan shi yai kara kamar ba zai daga ba ya dauka daga inda yake zaune.
Turanci mai kama da yaresu na chaina yakeyi naji yace outside da dan karfi kafin ya kara magana aka shigo gidan a daidai lokacin.
Mutum hudune dukkan su uku suna da kama da yan kasan sai na hudun nasu ne launin shi ya dan bambamta da sauran.
Tunda na daga ido na kallesu naji sam basu kwanta min a rai ba don yanayin shigan su ma yana nuna basu da tarbiya ko kadan.
Ina zaune a yadda nake a wurin ban ko motsa ba balle alaman tashi don shigowan su din sai dai a cikin daurewa nake zaune don yadda suka sameni a lokacin jikina babu hijjab a tare dani.
Duk wani iskancin da suka shigo dashi lokaci daya suka shanyeshi a fuskan su sai sukayi wani irin sayin a wurin.
Barin ma shi philis daya fi kowa iya iskancin don baida kunya ko kadan shi a gaban kowa yana iya nuna halinsa.
Addua nake a bakina kamar yadda malam yace inyiwa wanda duk ban yarda dashi da zarab zamuyi arba da maishi.
Yar uwa addua kan gaskiya ne don shi philis din da numfashinsa ya kusa daukewa yake tambayan zuciyar shi wanan wace irin kyaune da ita haka kamar ba black girl ba ?
Tun kan su zauna dayan ke kallona yake fadin wanan queen din fa kanwar kane Jackson ko yar uwarka koko ka fara harka da matane kuma ?
Sai dai wanan din ai tayi kankanta da yawa gaskiya sai dai idan sister din kace ko ?
Wani kallo ya watsawa philip din lokaci guda yana fadin wanan ba business din ku bane kun shigo muna gida haka babu notices bayan kun san family dina na gidan nan.
Mu kuma ba haka addinin mu ya koyar damu shiga gidan da yan uwa suke tare da yardewan mutanen gidan.
Dukkan su dariya sukayi idon su na a kaina kara daure fuskana nayi garesu don kar suga damana a lokacin .
Mikewa nayi a lokacin Allah ya taimakeni ina saye da wani bakin dogon riga nawa na larabawan jordan mai shara sharan hanaye sai dan dinkin maternity daga zuwa wuyan rigan don yana da fadi bai matse min ba a jikina.
Cikin wani irin murya da ba yaya din ba harsu din sun mutu a saurare duk da basu jin yaren da mukeyi nida shi nake fadin.
Ka karasa ci ne a kwashe kayan yanzu aifa tuni yanayina ya tafi da imanin su lokaci guda har wasun su na rayawa a ransu wanan ai mutum zai iya gwadata ya gani a cikin mata.
Ki barshi julie zata fito ta kwashe ki koma ciki kawai yanzu ya fada fuskan shi a daure saida abin yaso ya bani dariya sai na fuske na fara tafiya don barin wurin.
Shima yaya mikewa yayi yana kallon agogon hannun shi yana fadin kuna nan ke nan don ni fita zanyi yanzu.
Duk wani kallo suka bishi dashi lokaci guda suna mamakinshi don yin hakan da yai masu kafin su mike subi bayan shi zuwa waje don shi har yakai kofa a lokacin.
A wajen gidan suka sameshi ya dafa kan mota ya dan bada nauyin shi ga motar suka sameshi a wurin suna fadin.
Kamar bakai murna da zuwan mu ba yau gidan naka bayan babban tukwicin da mukazo ma dashi har gida bayan ka kori tj a gidan ka musan yanzu kana cikin matsuwa a dan kwana biyun nan da kayi ba harka a tare dakai.
Sai lokacin ya dago daga yadda yake yana sauke idon shi akan saurayin da suka kawo mashi har gida wanda suke kira da sunyi mai sabon kamu har gida.
Don yaron dan kasan Egypt ne sabon dan hannune shi farkon shiga harkan shi ke nan a yanzu don haka sukaga ya dace da jacksom din .
Wani irin kallo yakewa saurin da yake tsaye yana dan wani kame jikin shi kamar wata mace sabon shigan karuwanci a fagen maza.
Tsab ya gama kallon saurayin kafin yayi murmushi yana fadin a cikin wani yare kasan nafi son baki kamana don nafi ganewa hakan.
Dariya suka saka tare da fadin ka dai gwada wanan din ka gani zakaji dadin zama dashi sosai don yaron zai iya dakai a yadda yaken nan sosai.
Dan murmushi ya kakaro a karo na farko a fuskan shi tun zuwan su gidan ya bude baki da kyat yana fadin ya gode da kulawan su gareshi.
Ya riko hannun yaron zuwa gareshi tare da jawoshi jikin shi a daidai lokacin ya jamal ya shigo gidan idon shi kan abinda yake faruwa.
Bai tsaya kulasu ba ya wuce abinsu cikin jin haushin su gabadaya don ya gane mai ake kullawa a wurin .
Saboda yasan taju yabar gidan tun washe garin daya dawo gidan a buge yaji suna fada sosai da taju din har yakai yai mashi korar kare ta yadda ba zai iya dawowa ba gidan lokacin.
Bin ya jamal din sukayi da kallo kafin yace kai wanan lafiyayyen guy din fa haka ko kayi sabon kamune ko bamu sani ba ?
Wani kallo ya sakewa mai maganan kafin yaji dayan na fadin amma wanan ai suna da kama sak da jackson wata kila dan uwansa ne na jini ai.
Sai gudan yace amma guy din ya hadu ya shima dan hannu ne in tayashi don nidai guy din yayi min wallahi.
What ya fada da karfi tare da fadin blood brother dinane fa kake fadan wanan maganan a kansa.
To meye a ciki don na nemi dan uwan ka a harka bro ina duk karuwan kan mune hakan da inje waje ina neman wasu .
Zuwa lokacin ran yaya jafar din ya kai kololuwar baci don ji yake kamar ya shake abokin nasa a wurin saboda takaici.
Kadai rigani magana ne don ni gaba daya ya tafi da imanina a wurin nan don guy din ya hadu sosai.
Dayan ya karbe da fadin saidai baku ganin cewa duka yan uwan nasa suna da jin kai sosai don gaba dayan su babu wanda ya gaida mu.
Don ko kallo bamu ishesu ba dukko yadda muke da daraja a gari nan ake girmamamu sai gashi su ko kallo bamu ishesu ba ai.
Cikin wani tsawa ya dakatar dasu yana fadin zan halaka mutum a wurin nan idan baku rufe min baki ba yanzu da kazamin maganan nan naku.
Kallon yanayin shi sukeyi don sun fahinci ranshi ya gama baci a lokacin ga baki daya kafin suji yana fadin.
Ai wanan wullakanci ne da